Tuesday, May 15, 2012

3 monthes

Well here I am 3 months post surgery for gastric bypass, I now weigh 229, my seminar weight was oh my can't believe I am sharing this... 289. the morning of surgery I was 261. So I am down 32 pounds since surgery.
I now am able to walk on my treadmill daily. I have an exercise ball and use that almost daily too, depending on the business of the day. I do like the core strengthening.
There are some foods that go down so great and I do for the most part  feel good, unless I eat scrambled eggs or baked chicken. I just can not seem to handle those anymore, I do hope it is temporary, I can handle egg salad, I can handle a progressive soup with chicken in it , so I think it has to do with dry foods.
Good thing is I am not bored with cottage cheese or Greek yogurt, so I am so thankful for that as in a pinch, they go down great, I can eat them anywhere and feel full and fine and move on.
Also sugar free Popsicles are this girls friend, especially after being sick.
I don't really miss carbs, which is good, as I also can't tolerate them to well. I do OK with a few crackers, but I made chicken soup and dumplings and like I said, chicken in soup is OK, but the dumplings were more then I am used to. So have been feeding it to friends and my amazing , wonderful supportive husband. I am so grateful for the support of family and friends, it has helped so much.
It is wild to not be diabetic anymore, at first I would go to have a meal and think "Oh I am forgetting my metformin" now it is a wild thing to go to bed with out my levimer shot. I have had good blood sugars and gotten low with no terrible symptoms as my body tolerates it so much better.
The little guy in the bassinet is one reason, I am so glad I did this too. I get to live longer and be more active and play with him well he grows up.
My friend was here visiting from MO yesterday, we are the same age, but her kids are 11,7,and 3.. it is wild I started younger so my boys are 25 that is Chad in the pic with me, and baby Edward. Chris is 23 and Here Kim is with little ones and I am a grandma, I don't feel old so I won't go gracefully, ahahah
So all in all life is good. God is good all the time. And I keep plugging away!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

This little one

OK I am bad at the picture thing and will have to have hubby help me , But this little guy was born today at 1:52am, to my son Chad and his wife Tiffany, His name is Edward Allen Peterson,
I am over the moon in love with him. I will love you forever Eddie!

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Some where in between

Do I hate that I can't eat certain things with out getting very sick since surgery, sure, but I don't hate that I had surgery. I am not totally feeling a love for it today either.
I can't eat chicken, unless it is in soup and pureed and my body doesn't know it is there, I tried it once, got sick, gave it time tried it again and got violently sick. Since then I have not tried it again, I mean 4 hours of vomiting, does something to a girl that makes her more cautious.
But since that violent vomiting my "pouch" new stomach, has not really felt good at all. the first bit of anything causes nausea, I am eating slow enough , It just seems those first few bites are not great.
This morning I had to miss church, as I just could not shake the feeling I was gonna get sick, Oh I did, I was so bloated, it was amazing, I looked huge on the upper half of my abdomen.
So I was glad that what ever was blocking me up passed and now it is just the nausea, but sometimes I still feel like with all the work I am doing and the little food I am eating I really deserve to be losing faster. But I also hear slow and steady wins the race. It is some here in between I need to get. Not hating, or loving, but a middle ground where this is good and I can do this.
I can do this, I will do this , I would just like it to feel better.
I would like to not miss things and people "well I am taking time to heal and adjust"
I feel normal, Ha normal for me, that is . Don't want to imply I am anything but me. Why can't I just get my body to work with me a bit.

I have been reading out of my Old NAS Bible, it is cool to use different translations at times, and cool to look back on things I underlined or wrote something in the margins.

I am finding comfort in my vomiting in Mark 7:14-23
I will paraphrase here and Jesus is talking about the things we eat are not things that defile us, as they  are eliminated. But it is from our hearts that we defiled by what is in it,, we so need to guard out hearts and fill it with the Word of God and be walking in His ways. Loving and showing His love to others.

"Heavenly Father I thank you for this journey you have me on, and  you and you alone are in total control, Lord I thank you that you will see me through and that nothing I can do will change things except rely on You, feed on your word, and live as you have directed. I give you my sour attitude and ask Father that you help me to not focus on me and not feeling well, but to be thankful in all things and that you will use all to your Glory.
Thank you for this day, for the time you have given me with my hubby, for the work you  have been giving him and for providing all we need.
I love you Lord. Use me as you will , thank you and praise you in the precious holy name of Jesus, AMEN!"