Monday, November 28, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving..... day 28

Today I am thankful for this little blog, a place to just write out my thoughts and think things through and have them to read back through at a later date. I am starting to feel a bit excited about the kids coming home form VA. I am so proud of them for making a new life out there but I miss them so.
Have had company the last two days and loved it have been getting a bit lonely yet, healing slowly, so the distraction has been great, and the human contact wonderful, we have a great dog, but he only talks so much, ya know. So today I am tired and it feels so good , refreshed by friendship.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving day 26

As I read face book and the 30 day of thanksgiving challenge, I see so many who have dropped of now that thanksgiving is over. Oh how I wish we would remember each day to be thankful, I saw a poster that said, "what if you only had today what you were thankful for yesterday?" Today I am thankful for music, it speaks to me... so much, as you can see. So many songs speak to what my heart and soul are crying out to God. I love photos also , but we currently have no camera and so it makes it hard to get those on here. But I want to .I don't want to be a photographer at all not my goal or talent, just want to show the world those things I love. FAMILY mostly I love knowing anything I try in myself, is not going to work unless it is God's will. Yes I can pump gas with out Him, or pay bills with out Him, but as I try and draw deeper to Him, those things are unfulfilled with out Him,for me. So if you see some crazy blond, talking to herself well pumping gas, maybe I am not crazy, maybe I was just being me, :) and needing to talk to my Father.( or maybe I am having a crazy moment and will be talking to Him soon ) So much of life can change in a moment. A child can speak to you and share their little heart and heal yours of so much pain, I so understand why God said we should be like them, they are honest loving and kind. OH to walk so simply through life. As the Christmas season approaches I am vowing to make it a wonderful time, Kristy, Dan and Ben and Elliot will be here from VA, and that in and of it self is such a great gift to Ken and I. Oh How I pray that all hearts may know the true reason about Christmas, that God loved us so very much He sent His one and only son to earth to die in our place... I am so very grateful.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving day 23

WOW day 23, Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I feel like the month has sped by. There is just so much in life I am thankful for I just can't stop at 30, and if I could I imagine something else would pop up and I would be thankful for that.

Today 4 little girls called to see how I was and say Happy Thanksgiving, as usual their dad checks all calls and if a number doesn't register to him he calls it back, so it was a nice little chat, he asked how my back was and he mentioned he was having lab band surgery, and so i shared with him I was also and it was just a nice little time of encouraging someone else.

It is for simple little phone calls that I am thankful for, and for being able to be of encouragement to others. I know it is what God has called me to do so when it happens I am ever so grateful. To share love, support, and let someone know I will be praying for them, that is who I am. I am nothing fancy, I don't have the fancy  clothes, to save money we have one car, and I am not the greatest cook, But lately God has shown me that I am the me He created and though I may not be perfect at all I want to be, I am the only one who can be me, and I am so thankful He has finally gotten that through my thick skull. Oh how many years I have wasted. Trying so hard to be something else, when right before me was the girl God wanted me to be.

I also love this lab band journey, it has opened doors to chat with people, Ken and I and the kids are all in agreement on it so that is cool. It will be life changing, but I go into with God, who has given me such a peace on it.

I am so thankful for what some may consider simply, to me, they are big, and sent by an even bigger God, He is so good all the time......

Monday, November 21, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving.... day 21

Oh How I wish I had felt good all this month to have really put the time and effort into this I wanted to when I started.
Had my two week post op appointment, and the site is healing, and the muscles will take time as they were cut and nerves were moved, so what I thought was going to be done and over fast I find out today it will take about 6 weeks, and I need to rest a bit more, and sit less.  I got allot of walking into today and now am so very sore. I am thankful for good pain meds.
I am also thankful for a good friend who has been calling on Mondays and we have bee having awesome prayer time, needing it tonight , as I am a bit discouraged by the pain and finding out I need more time, healing. It gets lonely around here that is for sure.
Our oldest daughter is making thanksgiving dinner and I only need to make dinner buns, so that is fun. I am not used to that so I am excited , plus I don't have to do dishes, WOOHOO.. 

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Thansgiving,,,,day 19

Wow this back thing has really sapped my energy and my 30 day plan here, NOT that I could not got through and have 30 days worth of things, I do believe I could have more. But sitting up still is very painful for my back, and I have had some complications with swelling, which makes it uncomfortable to do much at all.
I have been doing pretty well about keeping my spirits up, and keepinh busy reading and listening to movies, can't lay on my left side to see them.
Today I am thankful for the peace of God that is getting me through this.For with out Him I know not where I would be.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving..... day 16

Today I am so thankful for my dear praying friends, those you can turn to in sorrow or joy, and they will listen and pray and just be there for you. I am a week post surgery , and getting a bit more active daily, went and saw my dietitian and so one more visit is done. It is wild to believe how God is working this together, its has it moments,but for the most part, it is peaceful, I feel His grace surrounding me when I feel week, and I feel the love of my dear friends praying for me.
Thank you and bless you my dear ones!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving, 14

Yes there is about a week missing, the surgery went fine, and I am able to sit up a bit longer day by day, so I am thankful for that, Didn't realize how much I would miss sitting up, or sleeping through the night. The back spasms have been terrible.But even they are calming down day by day. It has differently been a learning process. Well My sit time is at it's end so I hear my bed calling better go see what it wants.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving ... day and 8 and 9

Yes I am cheating a bit today as tomorrow is my back surgery and I won't be able to get on here. Hopefully I will feel better fast and be able to be back at life soon.
But today I am thankful for the funny things my grandsons do, They make me laugh, today they were smelling each others feet.For no apparently reason. They are very happy busy boys and they keep their momma very busy.

I am also very thankful for my dog, we have a Samoyed and I am not grateful he sheds like he does, but I am so glad he is a loving, gentle dog.

So off I go. need to get some sleep tonight cause I don't know when I will again, HA I am a tummy sleeper and I have to sleep on my back for the next several weeks, so not sure how that will work.But I am sure I will find out!

Monday, November 7, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving ... Day 7

Today I am thankful for my sisters, they are so very special to me and I just love them ever so much, they are both different yet so much alike. and it seems the older we get the better we like each other. Yep I consider myself lucky and blessed they are mine.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving, ... day 6

Today I am thankful for the fact, I was born into my family and have many cousins, These people I love like brothers and sisters, we have so many memories we made as young children and now that we are older and don't have as much time together, I still love and pray for them daily, their kids are like extra nieces and nephews, and I look forward to any visit, call or even facebook chat I can get with them.
Time passes but we always seem to be able to catch up, or restart where we last left off.
I think part of the reason I grew up loving people like I do was being part of such a loving family. So Today I am thankful for all my cousins. May the Lord touch each one and be near them, and send them all a hug from me!

Saturday, November 5, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving 5

Today I am thankful for my parents. We had some lab work we had to run to their town to have done so we got  to have a wonderful surprise visit with them. My sister and her family , has lived with them for the last several years and had recently moved out to their own home only a block away.
SO after a nice visit and some yummy lunch, we took a walk to my sisters as I  had  not seen her house yet.
 I am loving this warm fall weather ... What a fun thing to just get up and go for a walk. it wasn't far so my back handled it well. Plus mentally the exercise was great.Can't wait till my back is better and I can get on my treadmill.
I love growing older and becoming friends with my mom and dad, more and more, they are so much fun. Yep I am very very thankful for them, and all the love and truth they have shown and taught me.

Psalm 57 3b.. " God sends His faithful love and truth" HCSB

Friday, November 4, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving.. day4

I am so thankful for all my kids but since I have 30 days I thought I would take a day for each.
Today I am thankful for our daughter Michelle, she is 32 years old, and beautiful, strong and kind. She is her daddies girl but in the last 6 years she has become mine too. Today she came and finsished up a bunch of cleaning I wanted done, and brought me a grocery bag and a folder of DVD's to watch well I recover.
Totally a blessing, she helped serve dinner, and cleaned up after. She is living and going back to school, and looking for work. She is very much a go getter and we love her and I am so greatful she lets me call her mine.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving 3

Today I am ever so thankful again for Skye, I love to be able to sit and chat in the middle of the day with my grandsons, whom I am over the moon thankful for, and their wonderful mommy and daddy... When the idea they were first moving  to the  Dc, area came out. I was shocked and sad. So much we would miss. But thanks to Skye we can talk and pretend to tickle and blow kisses back and forth, and we have watched Ben grown from a little 18 month old to a 21/2 year old. Elliot has grown so much, he can dial the phone and ask you to get online, he is writing his name, and we get to see it all.
They will be home over Christmas and I am so excited. Real hugs, I can't wait.
I am so thankful for the beautiful little family they are and the ability to still see and hear them so frequently!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Just some thoughts

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, the vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved. It is in our most trying times that our real character is shaped and revealed."
This is a quote by Helen Keller, and when I read it today it made me realize I was better for all I have gone through as of late, though I do not understand it at all yet, and the change is hard to deal with, I feel I have become a better person, via forgiveness both given to those who hurt me and from my heavenly Father.
Now I await the next step God has for me, though I know not what it is or where God will haveme, I know He has us in the Palm of His hand.
He knows the true desires of my heart, and He knows my talents and gifts He wants used.
So it comes to trust and patience and since back surgery is only a week away I have nothing to do but wait.
"Lord use me to the Glory of your will"

30 days of Thanksgiving 2

 WOW the very number one thing I am thankful for is my relationship with the Lord.
I have put Him through more then my parents, and He still loves me and wants me.

I gave my heart to Jesus at age 11. At a meeting in our yard lead by sister from the Lutheran church, now.. the sister part confuses me and mom only vaguely remembers this, but I remember of hearing of the Love of God and Jesus who came and loved us so he DIED for ME!. I gave my heart to Him forever on that summer day.
I was blessed to have both my parents also become saved at that time, so from there on I was raised in a home growing in the Lord. Loving Jesus the best we could and serving Him.
Of course I grew up and lets just say that many things in my life I decide to do what I wanted more then what the Lord wanted during my late teens. But God has always been faithful to forgive , and direct me back to Him.
I have loved my life with the Lord, I know at times the relationship has been more one sided, HIM putting out more then me and as I have aged and really dedicated myself to serving Him and following Him daily and running after more of Jesus , things have been so beautiful and precious.
I love when He shows me things and allows me ways to act out service for Him, whether that be serving in church, or talking to a friend, or even a stranger in a store about His love. I want Him to be seen in all my life and how I live.
I love when He show me things in His word.I love when He shows me simple things like Joy being  Jesus , others and You. We are important to the God who created heaven and earth and he cares about us, and everything we go through, he wants a relationship with US.
Oh Yes I am so very thankful for my relationship with my heavenly Father. I can't tell you just how much He is my all in all.I Pray you know Him too!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

30 days of Thanksgiving.. Day 1

No, I am not gonna eat turkey every day for a month, not that I don't like it ... I mean real heart felt things I am thankful for though. One a day for a month, seems so easy yet it can be hard. So many days I forget to tell the Lord what I am thankful for, and so many times I forget to tell people that I am thankful for them.

SO to start day one I will tell you I am thankful for my husband, he is patient for the most part with me all the time.
He adores me, even when I feel undeserving, and can not figure out why. He loves unconditionally and with out question, he is an absolute thinking type. Which at times makes for interesting conversations from this emotional thinking girl.

He is exceptionally gifted with wood working, a talent that I don't give him enough attention on. It is amazing what the man can do with a chunk of wood, we are talking, make, bowls, candle holders, vases, a music box. He loves turning wood.

He loves our kids, his and mine so much, and the older they get the more they are learning to appreciate the absolute thinking. I see a relationship between each of them he doesn't cause I am looking from the out side, just like he does for me.

He adores his grandsons and misses them so much, and never complains about it, only says supportive things, and lots of  prayers for his son, our daughter-in -law and grandsons.

Most of all he Loves the Lord with his all his heart, soul mind and strength, is a great spiritual leader for me, and a wonderful soul mate.
And today and every day I am thankful for my husband, may I learn to tell him enough how great I feel he is!