I am so thankful for all my kids but since I have 30 days I thought I would take a day for each.
Today I am thankful for our daughter Michelle, she is 32 years old, and beautiful, strong and kind. She is her daddies girl but in the last 6 years she has become mine too. Today she came and finsished up a bunch of cleaning I wanted done, and brought me a grocery bag and a folder of DVD's to watch well I recover.
Totally a blessing, she helped serve dinner, and cleaned up after. She is living and going back to school, and looking for work. She is very much a go getter and we love her and I am so greatful she lets me call her mine.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
30 days of Thanksgiving ..day 3
Today I am ever so thankful again for Skye, I love to be able to sit and chat in the middle of the day with my grandsons, whom I am over the moon thankful for, and their wonderful mommy and daddy... When the idea they were first moving to the Dc, area came out. I was shocked and sad. So much we would miss. But thanks to Skye we can talk and pretend to tickle and blow kisses back and forth, and we have watched Ben grown from a little 18 month old to a 21/2 year old. Elliot has grown so much, he can dial the phone and ask you to get online, he is writing his name, and we get to see it all.
They will be home over Christmas and I am so excited. Real hugs, I can't wait.
I am so thankful for the beautiful little family they are and the ability to still see and hear them so frequently!
They will be home over Christmas and I am so excited. Real hugs, I can't wait.
I am so thankful for the beautiful little family they are and the ability to still see and hear them so frequently!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Just some thoughts
"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, the vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved. It is in our most trying times that our real character is shaped and revealed."
This is a quote by Helen Keller, and when I read it today it made me realize I was better for all I have gone through as of late, though I do not understand it at all yet, and the change is hard to deal with, I feel I have become a better person, via forgiveness both given to those who hurt me and from my heavenly Father.
Now I await the next step God has for me, though I know not what it is or where God will haveme, I know He has us in the Palm of His hand.
He knows the true desires of my heart, and He knows my talents and gifts He wants used.
So it comes to trust and patience and since back surgery is only a week away I have nothing to do but wait.
"Lord use me to the Glory of your will"
"Lord use me to the Glory of your will"
30 days of Thanksgiving ...day 2
WOW the very number one thing I am thankful for is my relationship with the Lord.
I have put Him through more then my parents, and He still loves me and wants me.
I gave my heart to Jesus at age 11. At a meeting in our yard lead by sister from the Lutheran church, now.. the sister part confuses me and mom only vaguely remembers this, but I remember of hearing of the Love of God and Jesus who came and loved us so he DIED for ME!. I gave my heart to Him forever on that summer day.
I was blessed to have both my parents also become saved at that time, so from there on I was raised in a home growing in the Lord. Loving Jesus the best we could and serving Him.
Of course I grew up and lets just say that many things in my life I decide to do what I wanted more then what the Lord wanted during my late teens. But God has always been faithful to forgive , and direct me back to Him.
I have loved my life with the Lord, I know at times the relationship has been more one sided, HIM putting out more then me and as I have aged and really dedicated myself to serving Him and following Him daily and running after more of Jesus , things have been so beautiful and precious.
I love when He shows me things and allows me ways to act out service for Him, whether that be serving in church, or talking to a friend, or even a stranger in a store about His love. I want Him to be seen in all my life and how I live.
I love when He show me things in His word.I love when He shows me simple things like Joy being Jesus , others and You. We are important to the God who created heaven and earth and he cares about us, and everything we go through, he wants a relationship with US.
Oh Yes I am so very thankful for my relationship with my heavenly Father. I can't tell you just how much He is my all in all.I Pray you know Him too!
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
30 days of Thanksgiving.. Day 1
No, I am not gonna eat turkey every day for a month, not that I don't like it ... I mean real heart felt things I am thankful for though. One a day for a month, seems so easy yet it can be hard. So many days I forget to tell the Lord what I am thankful for, and so many times I forget to tell people that I am thankful for them.
SO to start day one I will tell you I am thankful for my husband, he is patient for the most part with me all the time.
He adores me, even when I feel undeserving, and can not figure out why. He loves unconditionally and with out question, he is an absolute thinking type. Which at times makes for interesting conversations from this emotional thinking girl.
He is exceptionally gifted with wood working, a talent that I don't give him enough attention on. It is amazing what the man can do with a chunk of wood, we are talking, make, bowls, candle holders, vases, a music box. He loves turning wood.
He loves our kids, his and mine so much, and the older they get the more they are learning to appreciate the absolute thinking. I see a relationship between each of them he doesn't cause I am looking from the out side, just like he does for me.
He adores his grandsons and misses them so much, and never complains about it, only says supportive things, and lots of prayers for his son, our daughter-in -law and grandsons.
Most of all he Loves the Lord with his all his heart, soul mind and strength, is a great spiritual leader for me, and a wonderful soul mate.
And today and every day I am thankful for my husband, may I learn to tell him enough how great I feel he is!
SO to start day one I will tell you I am thankful for my husband, he is patient for the most part with me all the time.
He adores me, even when I feel undeserving, and can not figure out why. He loves unconditionally and with out question, he is an absolute thinking type. Which at times makes for interesting conversations from this emotional thinking girl.
He is exceptionally gifted with wood working, a talent that I don't give him enough attention on. It is amazing what the man can do with a chunk of wood, we are talking, make, bowls, candle holders, vases, a music box. He loves turning wood.
He loves our kids, his and mine so much, and the older they get the more they are learning to appreciate the absolute thinking. I see a relationship between each of them he doesn't cause I am looking from the out side, just like he does for me.
He adores his grandsons and misses them so much, and never complains about it, only says supportive things, and lots of prayers for his son, our daughter-in -law and grandsons.
Most of all he Loves the Lord with his all his heart, soul mind and strength, is a great spiritual leader for me, and a wonderful soul mate.
And today and every day I am thankful for my husband, may I learn to tell him enough how great I feel he is!
Friday, October 28, 2011
Weight, Pain and dirt!
I am a babbler, I get all nervous and I need to talk it out, like right now this very moment I should be trying my hardest to clean. My house is a mess, I have had back issues and let things slip. Well the herniated disc must be removed and I feel more crazy then I remember when I had a child, see that was a long time ago and I had months to get ready,
I am lets get it done now type even if I have 9-10 months. They saw me about 2 weeks ago and said surgery is highly needed , ran a few more tests only to confirm yes surgery is needed and it is in less then 2 weeks, wait a minute, how come I am seeing dust bunnies, actually fur bunnies every where since they called? Why is there black dog hair every where when he was suppose to be non shedding? Why do we have an invisible closet behind the couch?!?!?!? Like really non of us can carry anything to the proper place.
All these things are like on a scale of one to ten a ten right now, life is gonna happen no matter what I do, but hey maybe we could do with a little less fur and leaves, yes the dogs bring them in, everywhere.But I will find a way.
Great news on the weight front have lost 10 pounds so amazed, just met with the dietitian and she gave me 4 new goals so I will work on those also, this is also why the back DR was so wanting it fast, He wants me healed before my stomach surgery. SO yes I lost weight, ME ... food is losing it's ability to taste good any more, over my birthday I did let myself not diet , and I was able to give up all caffeine and sodas, so that is a grand accomplishment.
My pain makes it hard to sit, stand or lay to long, so that is a bummer , I have spent lots of time reading and praying and praying some more, I love that last night was hard to sleep but each time I woke , I had a song on my heart and sang myself back to sleep, yes in my head, not out loud, ha don't want to scare people,
Well this rant has helped, though I think and do believe I see dust every where, I feel better, Oh the price of free therapy is sweet.
Oh and if you see bunnies running around that look like half Samoyed and half CockerPoo, Dogs, nope they did not come from here you go ahead and keep them!!!!
I am lets get it done now type even if I have 9-10 months. They saw me about 2 weeks ago and said surgery is highly needed , ran a few more tests only to confirm yes surgery is needed and it is in less then 2 weeks, wait a minute, how come I am seeing dust bunnies, actually fur bunnies every where since they called? Why is there black dog hair every where when he was suppose to be non shedding? Why do we have an invisible closet behind the couch?!?!?!? Like really non of us can carry anything to the proper place.
All these things are like on a scale of one to ten a ten right now, life is gonna happen no matter what I do, but hey maybe we could do with a little less fur and leaves, yes the dogs bring them in, everywhere.But I will find a way.
Great news on the weight front have lost 10 pounds so amazed, just met with the dietitian and she gave me 4 new goals so I will work on those also, this is also why the back DR was so wanting it fast, He wants me healed before my stomach surgery. SO yes I lost weight, ME ... food is losing it's ability to taste good any more, over my birthday I did let myself not diet , and I was able to give up all caffeine and sodas, so that is a grand accomplishment.
My pain makes it hard to sit, stand or lay to long, so that is a bummer , I have spent lots of time reading and praying and praying some more, I love that last night was hard to sleep but each time I woke , I had a song on my heart and sang myself back to sleep, yes in my head, not out loud, ha don't want to scare people,
Well this rant has helped, though I think and do believe I see dust every where, I feel better, Oh the price of free therapy is sweet.
Oh and if you see bunnies running around that look like half Samoyed and half CockerPoo, Dogs, nope they did not come from here you go ahead and keep them!!!!
Friday, October 7, 2011
Weight and life
Well I am gonna start on the weight front, I have again lost several pounds, and am so glad for that. I have completed my goal of giving up all diet soda and caffeine. And have made it through a very hard week with out going to stress eating or chocolate. Actually can not remember the last time I had chocolate. I am so glad for this and happy my body and mind are finding other ways to deal.
On the life front this past Sunday was one of the hardest of my life, I don't understand it at all. I love the Lord, I try to follow His word and still fall so very short, I am just so not worthy, I am so glad the Lord finds me worthy. Words have been said that have cut my heart so deep, I am trying to find my way out.
I feel lost. I am not longer working with Kids Klub and I thought that was the answer instead it hurts worse then I can take, my email gets things all the time with kid info. and my hurt reopens.
I don't understand attending a church where some people find me so offensive, and wrong and not able to hear from God.
I have never been able to understand how people can be so mean. I am struggling, and trying to tell my self only positive and truthful things. I have examined my heart and know none of it is what happened. But the idea of 4 against 1 and the thought that I am unable to be forgiven cause I don't ask right and if I hurt one I hurt all , so really who am I suppose to ask and why are you all talking about me and thinking of all these things anyways. And God what am I to do with it now??? Really I need to know. SO I have spent lots of time reading, and praying and talking to people I respect. But it boils down to making a tough decision. and I hate those So I wait ......I know God is on the other end of this so at least I am not alone.
On the life front this past Sunday was one of the hardest of my life, I don't understand it at all. I love the Lord, I try to follow His word and still fall so very short, I am just so not worthy, I am so glad the Lord finds me worthy. Words have been said that have cut my heart so deep, I am trying to find my way out.
I feel lost. I am not longer working with Kids Klub and I thought that was the answer instead it hurts worse then I can take, my email gets things all the time with kid info. and my hurt reopens.
I don't understand attending a church where some people find me so offensive, and wrong and not able to hear from God.
I have never been able to understand how people can be so mean. I am struggling, and trying to tell my self only positive and truthful things. I have examined my heart and know none of it is what happened. But the idea of 4 against 1 and the thought that I am unable to be forgiven cause I don't ask right and if I hurt one I hurt all , so really who am I suppose to ask and why are you all talking about me and thinking of all these things anyways. And God what am I to do with it now??? Really I need to know. SO I have spent lots of time reading, and praying and talking to people I respect. But it boils down to making a tough decision. and I hate those So I wait ......I know God is on the other end of this so at least I am not alone.
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