I think I am finally getting the routine and hang of eating the way I am suppose to and making sure I get in the protein, plus variety to keep me more then full. I am almost up to a 1/2 cup of food at meal times, I drink a protein shake between meals and also lots of water.
Today is the first day I have felt really really good. the infection, allergic stuff is winding down, and my tummy looks 100% better.
My blood sugar readings have been awesome... Now if I could sleep through the night.
Last night I made myself lay here and I did fall back to sleep so I am glad for that. As they want you to follow a routine of eating.
Which was hard to do when I am awake from 2-5am, and wanna go back to bed and don't care about breakfast or food in the least.
There is really something to hunger.. so much of it was in my head. As I don't feel physical hunger. I love it,and I love learning to control my thoughts.
I have noticed I can smell better, now that is the weirdest thing, I have had bad sinus's forever and really not had a great since of smell,boy has that changed.
SO , I am just so grateful for the chance to do this and change my life and live a more healthy and productive one.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
My life since the 14th
So I woke up the morning of the 14th, showered again with the special soap, did my hair, didn't use enough hairspray, but hey I knew they would have Oxygen in the surgery room and I didn't want to blow up. :)
Got to the hospital at 9am, and was taken to the prep room, everyone was nice and it was actually very calming, met with the surgeon, and everyone who would be in the OR that day, lots of people, WOW.
Best part when they finally let Ken come back we got a few minutes to talk and then he had to give me my hug and kiss as they were taking me away.
Upon entering the OR I still was not super nervous. It was the Peace I had asked the Lord to give me, I truly don't remember anyone telling me I was gonna fall asleep now, BUT I woke up after it was over, it had gone well, and well lets say the pain was crazy, and it made me so fearful. Soon as I brought to Ken and able to have him call my parents, his parents and Pastor and His wife, to pray, I started to feel so much better, the fear left, I was able to get control with the pain meds, and with in hours was walking, I walked twice on the 2nd shift and once in the middle of the night.
My roomate was 2 years in to her gastric by-pass, so that was cool she was in for an injury, from lifting at work. But I don't want to say to much to invade her life. Though it was great to have a seasoned vet able to give me tips on things.
I think I had great nurses they answered all my questions and were so kind and cheerful.
By the next day I had to go down for a Barium swallow study, which I passed no leaks so I was able to have some clear liquids , which would be my diet for the next 8 days.
I also got checked for a blood clots, as after my last walk I started having more swelling in my ankle and calf. I retained so much fluid and had such poor out put, But once the pulled the Foley cath, my body kicked in and did it's thing.Once the Foley was out I was able to manage walks by myself so I spent allot of time walking, learning, they have OT come see you , and the dietitian, the DR for my blood sugars, and since I had not gotten allot of sleep basic none, I took a great nap. Ken slept in the chair, I swear there is something to knowing he is sleeping and his snore puts me out.
So by the 16th they were planning on having me go home, we spent the day just getting things ready and waiting for the DR. I got to take a shower and hang and watch movies and take walks.
the Dr was not out of surgery till, after 5pm so we were late getting home and just basically went right to bed. It was so great to be home! I got up to go to the rest room the first night and one of the steri strips came off, OK seeing your stomach that open makes you yell loud for help, Ken got me bandaged back up but I noticed blisters under the steri strips, hmmm not to good, I called in the morning and they said I need to try and leave them on as long as possible so Ok, the next night, what happens, I was dreaming and rolled out of bed landing on my tummy on the floor. Called the Dr again, and they said if the wounds were closed I was fine, and so I continued my liquid diet and Monday the 19th the nurse let me take off the steri strips as it was so itchy I just could not handle it and I had hives and bruising all over. Had my pre-op on the 22nd, and they figured I have a wound infection, so I am on antibiotics for that. I was able to start pureed diet yesterday but have laid low today as the stomach welts are still growing and are bruising still. But I still don't regret my decision. I feel OK , I have not been hungry,and seem to be tolerating things well.
If this itching would just go away I think things would be great. So now it is just giving things time to heal, walking as much as I can , and trying to get in enough liquids. Thinking I should be plenty busy.
Got to the hospital at 9am, and was taken to the prep room, everyone was nice and it was actually very calming, met with the surgeon, and everyone who would be in the OR that day, lots of people, WOW.
Best part when they finally let Ken come back we got a few minutes to talk and then he had to give me my hug and kiss as they were taking me away.
Upon entering the OR I still was not super nervous. It was the Peace I had asked the Lord to give me, I truly don't remember anyone telling me I was gonna fall asleep now, BUT I woke up after it was over, it had gone well, and well lets say the pain was crazy, and it made me so fearful. Soon as I brought to Ken and able to have him call my parents, his parents and Pastor and His wife, to pray, I started to feel so much better, the fear left, I was able to get control with the pain meds, and with in hours was walking, I walked twice on the 2nd shift and once in the middle of the night.
My roomate was 2 years in to her gastric by-pass, so that was cool she was in for an injury, from lifting at work. But I don't want to say to much to invade her life. Though it was great to have a seasoned vet able to give me tips on things.
I think I had great nurses they answered all my questions and were so kind and cheerful.
By the next day I had to go down for a Barium swallow study, which I passed no leaks so I was able to have some clear liquids , which would be my diet for the next 8 days.
I also got checked for a blood clots, as after my last walk I started having more swelling in my ankle and calf. I retained so much fluid and had such poor out put, But once the pulled the Foley cath, my body kicked in and did it's thing.Once the Foley was out I was able to manage walks by myself so I spent allot of time walking, learning, they have OT come see you , and the dietitian, the DR for my blood sugars, and since I had not gotten allot of sleep basic none, I took a great nap. Ken slept in the chair, I swear there is something to knowing he is sleeping and his snore puts me out.
So by the 16th they were planning on having me go home, we spent the day just getting things ready and waiting for the DR. I got to take a shower and hang and watch movies and take walks.
the Dr was not out of surgery till, after 5pm so we were late getting home and just basically went right to bed. It was so great to be home! I got up to go to the rest room the first night and one of the steri strips came off, OK seeing your stomach that open makes you yell loud for help, Ken got me bandaged back up but I noticed blisters under the steri strips, hmmm not to good, I called in the morning and they said I need to try and leave them on as long as possible so Ok, the next night, what happens, I was dreaming and rolled out of bed landing on my tummy on the floor. Called the Dr again, and they said if the wounds were closed I was fine, and so I continued my liquid diet and Monday the 19th the nurse let me take off the steri strips as it was so itchy I just could not handle it and I had hives and bruising all over. Had my pre-op on the 22nd, and they figured I have a wound infection, so I am on antibiotics for that. I was able to start pureed diet yesterday but have laid low today as the stomach welts are still growing and are bruising still. But I still don't regret my decision. I feel OK , I have not been hungry,and seem to be tolerating things well.
If this itching would just go away I think things would be great. So now it is just giving things time to heal, walking as much as I can , and trying to get in enough liquids. Thinking I should be plenty busy.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Home again
So I went in on Tuesday the 14th and was home the evening of the 16th. So much to write but need to get my words and thoughts in order.
I was just so blessed to have so many praying. I know it helped, the Dr's even saw such a difference.
What a blessing to know the Ultimate Physician personally.
I was just so blessed to have so many praying. I know it helped, the Dr's even saw such a difference.
What a blessing to know the Ultimate Physician personally.
Monday, February 13, 2012
Final Count Down.
24 hours from now I will be in my room recovering. WOW I can't believe it has been six months, I can't believe all I have learned, all I have not eaten LOL . Even on day two of clear liquids I am doing OK as I know the out come. It is all going to lead to better health, less meds, less back pain as having all this weight has made it so hard to get totally healed and straight. I will start PT again as soon as they allow so I can get more core strength and start an exercise program.
Am I a bit nervous yes, only cause I don't know the pain that will be there. I like to be strong, but I am believing it can not be worse then the back surgery. That I don't want to do again.
I am so encouraged by all the notes of encouragement I have gotten today. Even Dietitian J sent one, and everyone is so happy and praying for me. So many feel I can do this, I hate when I am asked why I waited so long.It had to be my time. I truly believe that, as if it wasn't I would not have been able to lose and keep doing all I needed to do.
It has been a long life of being over weight, since I was like 3 I was chubby in high school and thinned out some in my late teens early 20's then I started getting pregnant and kept weight on after each pregnancy even the ones that ended in loss of my child..
Then start adding meds for depression and up went the weight.How I allowed myself to get this big I will never understand.
But I must stop beating myself up and forgive myself as I have asked God to forgive me.
And start tomorrow as a new beginning and trust it is going to be a great journey. I am so thankful Ken is coming along for this. He has been so super supportive, and though he has yet to pack, :0) ( he is staying with his daughter who lives near the hospital) I know he loves and believes this is right and will be there for me always. We are bringing the computer, so if I am up to it I will updated.
Am I a bit nervous yes, only cause I don't know the pain that will be there. I like to be strong, but I am believing it can not be worse then the back surgery. That I don't want to do again.
I am so encouraged by all the notes of encouragement I have gotten today. Even Dietitian J sent one, and everyone is so happy and praying for me. So many feel I can do this, I hate when I am asked why I waited so long.It had to be my time. I truly believe that, as if it wasn't I would not have been able to lose and keep doing all I needed to do.
It has been a long life of being over weight, since I was like 3 I was chubby in high school and thinned out some in my late teens early 20's then I started getting pregnant and kept weight on after each pregnancy even the ones that ended in loss of my child..
Then start adding meds for depression and up went the weight.How I allowed myself to get this big I will never understand.
But I must stop beating myself up and forgive myself as I have asked God to forgive me.
And start tomorrow as a new beginning and trust it is going to be a great journey. I am so thankful Ken is coming along for this. He has been so super supportive, and though he has yet to pack, :0) ( he is staying with his daughter who lives near the hospital) I know he loves and believes this is right and will be there for me always. We are bringing the computer, so if I am up to it I will updated.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
2 days till take off!
Spent the day with errands, got all the lists done, visited my parents, and then Chris and Rosella came and had dinner with us and did some wedding planning. It has been a great day. Tiff was home from the hospital and resting well. IT is nice to have seen everyone. Tomorrow starts the clear liquids only diet.
I got to chat with my aunt in MI today, and she has been thinking of having the surgery also , so I got to answer allot of questions for her, and it was just fun to talk and laugh with her. I am blessed to have her praying for me and supporting me so.
I am so thankful for all the friend and family support. God is so good!
I got to chat with my aunt in MI today, and she has been thinking of having the surgery also , so I got to answer allot of questions for her, and it was just fun to talk and laugh with her. I am blessed to have her praying for me and supporting me so.
I am so thankful for all the friend and family support. God is so good!
Friday, February 10, 2012
Pre-op day
So today I had my pre-op, There are no tasks left to do on my task list, it is wild, I have to start a clear liquid diet Sunday through Monday. Tomorrow I will go see my parents again for a bit , as it will be awhile before I can go there.
Still praying for my daughter-in-law who is in the hospital, with some flu complications, being pregnant made her more vulnerable.Went to visit her today and she is feeling some better and the baby is well.
My other son is coming for a visit.So I am doing last minute visiting for awhile all weekend.
It will be fun and full.
Total weight loss was at 28 pounds today. So encouraged, So thankful that this journey is life long and I have so very much support.
So forward we go!
Still praying for my daughter-in-law who is in the hospital, with some flu complications, being pregnant made her more vulnerable.Went to visit her today and she is feeling some better and the baby is well.
My other son is coming for a visit.So I am doing last minute visiting for awhile all weekend.
It will be fun and full.
Total weight loss was at 28 pounds today. So encouraged, So thankful that this journey is life long and I have so very much support.
So forward we go!
Thursday, February 9, 2012
4 days left
In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. ~Psalm 5:3
Today I am waiting, My daughter-in law, who lives with us and is pregnant got my flu, only it dehydrated her badly, as she is needing to hydrated for two so she is in the hospital and I have been praying lots for her. While writing this I got a call from my son who said her kidneys are doing better and she may get to be home tomorrow. Oh how I am praying God's healing touch on her.
Spoke with the surgery nurse this morning and got that all settled, I am to be at the hospital at 9am. So glad as we live a bit away and I didn't want it to be 5 am. I will take an 11;00am surgery any day.
She was so kind and answered all my questions plus more. So I am doing this. I can't explain the amazing peace I have. Thank you Lord.
Today I am waiting, My daughter-in law, who lives with us and is pregnant got my flu, only it dehydrated her badly, as she is needing to hydrated for two so she is in the hospital and I have been praying lots for her. While writing this I got a call from my son who said her kidneys are doing better and she may get to be home tomorrow. Oh how I am praying God's healing touch on her.
Spoke with the surgery nurse this morning and got that all settled, I am to be at the hospital at 9am. So glad as we live a bit away and I didn't want it to be 5 am. I will take an 11;00am surgery any day.
She was so kind and answered all my questions plus more. So I am doing this. I can't explain the amazing peace I have. Thank you Lord.
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